Saturday, May 16, 2009

Pregnant with number 3, December 23rd

It is true. We discovered a short while ago that Max and I are expecting number 3. Now granted there was some shock value behind this, so much I was struck unfunctionable for a day. I had just become accepting of having 2 beautiful girls, satisfied as one may say, finished trying for another, after 4 1/2 years of trying. I was accepting what was before me, instead of my instinct. Instead of my hubby's feelings there was one more. I was ready to be happy with 2. There were moments of... I can afford 2. I can develop properly 2. A moment of grateful I am not in the baby stages, and worried about our world, bringing one more into this greedy world. One may feel 4 1/2 years of trying... and not being pregnant meant I was not able to be pregnant. My ability was finished, I need to be grateful I carried 2 beautiful children....... and beautiful they are. They are the light of my life. I love hearing their laughter, their discoveries, their delight in life. I enjoy helping them overcome obstacles, helping them help others, and realize the world is bigger than you and I. We are here to help others become who they need to become.
As the paradigm has shifted in my eyes about the size of my family, excitement and awe has filled my life. There is no doubt that this child is a gift from God. A child He has decided needs to be in our family, a child I will get the privilege of rearing and helping and training to be raised to fulfill His plan. I feel honored and very humble at this opportunity to, with my husband, bring another child of God into this world. To discover with this child the abilities, strengths and weaknesses. To help conquer obstacles and be triumphant!
I thought I had a little control over this aspect of my life, but I have come to realize I don't. I am at the mercy of God in this avenue. So through the nausea, messy house, tired days, hormonal, and very uncomfortable months, I get to experience a little miracle in creating life. Cherishing the moments.

12 comments:

Amy and David said...

Congratulations!

Christine & Crew said...

Yeah! Congratulations Deb and Max.

Millie said...

Yes1!!Good News. I am so happy for you guys. Hugs...

Nikki said...

What a beautiful entry! You will do a great job! Congrats!

JP said...

This is so great! Congrats!

Jill

laurylaro said...

We are so excited for you guys-- Congrats again!:-)

Shelly said...

Hey that was Sidney's due date!! Good luck. I lOVE having 3 girls..but a boy would be great too!!.I am so happy to hear the news and happy for your family.

Kate said...

:) I'm so happy for you guys! Congrats!

Katrina said...

Awesome, Deb. (Rather you than me! ;) jk)

kimlis said...

Isn't it awesome to know where babies really come from -- from our Heavenly Father. Knowing you are bringing a Child of God to live with you is wonderful, isn't it? WE are happy for you all...

Cristal said...

That is very deep. Makes one think and reflect about their own life. I'm so glad to hear your attitude of joy and blessing toward bringing this new life, a child of god, into the world. Congrats! 'Tis a wonderful adventure.

gremhog susan.hatch@gmail.com said...

i have come to the realization that I am so NOT in control ... but #3 will be fine for you....in all the areas of your worry.